This week I purchased the Deutsch You Want Me Baby color from OPI’s Germany collection. I previously bought some I wrote about in an earlier post. And, I now have 4 of the 12 colors and I have to say, this is my favorite so far. Plus, I just got another Ulta coupon in the mail! My daughter and I are going back and forth over which one to buy next. I always think I have my mind made up until I am actually there. So, it will be a surprise…even for me. ha ha 🙂
I did the unthinkable. I quit my day job. Six years ago I got a job at a very reputable corporate company. At the time my daughter was almost 2, I was unemployed and bored. The thought of being around adults all day sounded great. I moved up in the company and made a nice living. Although it was a good job with a great company, something was missing. Myself. I was the kid in high school who didn’t eat meat, marched in protests and surrendered myself to the music coming out of my record player. Sure I have come along way since then, but I’m not a completely different person.
Just recently I had a second child. A boy. The most adorable boy I have ever seen. To think of going back to my corporate cubicle job and miss out on his childhood was just too much. After much discussion with the hubby, we found a way to make it work. I would quit my job and be what I said I would never do again. A stay at home mom. I knew immediately that I had to have some kind of creative outlet or I would go mad. Luckily, my sister and I had been recently dabbling in vintage selling on etsy and we were having fun. So here I am. Home with Gavin and running the online vintage shop. Sure I love it. I get to spend the days with my baby and work on the shop to keep my mind active. The only problem with an online shop is that’s what it is…online. . I feel the walls closing in on me lately and although I love hanging out with my boy, he’s not much for conversation. While I interact all day with people online, it really doesn’t equate to a real adult conversation. I really don’t want to sound like I’m complaining. I think I just need a mommy getaway or something. I need to hit the refresh button and get my mojo back in gear. I have no regrets about the position I am currently in and would do it again in a heartbeat. Perhaps I need a better system for my day. But, crap, I’m terrible at schedules and I’m rarely able to maintain them for more than a week. Maybe I should start a “Stay at home-work at home-needs some stimulating conversation that has nothing to do with kids club”. Might need to shorten the name a bit. I have even considered going to the book club at the library. Ugh…Anyways…I need a plan.
Ok, so my vintage bag isn’t brand new, but it’s new to me! Every season I get a new handbag, however, I usually get some cheap TJ Maxx version. This year I was determined to break the cycle. I have been very addicted to woven leather lately and I wanted to continue this trend into my new handbag. As a very busy mother of two, my handbags need to be easy to carry, functional and big enough to fit everything without feeling like I’m carrying a piece of luggage. This always presents a challenge, but one I was ready to take on. As I combed the pages of etsy, I honed in on the genuine leather midsize vintage selection. Once I saw it on Starlets Vintage, I knew it was the one. It met all of my requirements and my price! I pressed the check out button and waited patiently for my package to arrive. Yesterday my wait was over as I eagerly opened the box. I was so excited. It felt like Christmas. My 8-year-old daughter watched me dance around the house with the beautiful vintage bag on my arm and told me I was “SO weird” but I didn’t care. I am very pleased with my new addition and will wear it proudly.
I was scrolling the Pinterest boards I follow and saw some fabulous floral flats. It really got me thinking about floral and how I miss the 90’s. Most of all, watching Daria and expanding my Doc Martin’s collection. For years the 90’s were thought to be the worst fashion years, however, with their recent comeback, some are changing their tune. They were bold, fun and colorful. Just like the music. HA! Which I also enjoyed and still do. Now I wish I would have saved some of my baby doll dresses and denim button-ups. You know, the ones I swore were a mistake and never would wear again. I should have known better. I’ve rummaged through some of my favorite 90’s moments. Fun times.
Last night I found myself flipping the channels and landing on Joan Rivers. She was wearing a large burnt orange fur-trimmed jacket harping on a random celebrity for their fashion folly. She was co-hosting the show Fashion Police along side, Giuliana Rancic, Kelly Osborne and George Kotsiopoulos. While the show was at times crude and mildly obnoxious, I couldn’t get myself to change the channel. It was like watching the aftermath of a car accident. You can’t take your eyes off of its mayham and destruction. I watched, focused as Joan cut down the majority of the looks displayed and then the co-hosts laughing acting like they are embarrassed. Yeah right. Halfway through I made the decision to lay back and finish the just recently extended hour-long show and enjoy. I found myself wondering how I could get a job on a TV show bashing other people’s fashions while looking rather questionable myself. I think it now takes a place as one of my top dream jobs. Right next to personal shopper.
I am in GREAT need of a new purse. The one I have currently have is a bit embarrassing. It’s the one I got for free as a gift for first subscribing to Vogue. Sure, I have other purses, but they are all very large. When I was prego, I got sick of lugging the huge handbags everywhere. Needing to buy all things baby, I couldn’t justify spending the money on a new purse. Now that I have opened my eyes and see the purse I’ve been using the past few months is REALLY bad, I don’t know how I ever thought it was OK. There are so many wonderful choices this season for handbags. I want something really fun for summer and I honestly don’t know where to start. I have a few of my favorites, but I really can’t choose. In an effort to make a solid decision, I’m reaching out to you to help me. Which one do you like the best? Please let me know and I’ll post which one I finally chose based on the comments. Thank you in advance!!
While I belive daily inspiration is needed to stay motivated, what if your stuck in bloggers block? I’ve been in a rut for the past week and although I’ve made my motivation board, set up an editorial calendar and written a list of possible blog topics, I still can’t seem to get it down in an interesting post. Even reading my March issue of Vogue has fallen flat. This really goes to show that not getting a good night sleep can really effect those creative juices. I love my little man, but waking up every 2-3 hours for feedings is really a strain on my brain. I have never been the type to take a nap in the middle of the afternoon. Lately, however, I have found myself falling asleep without warning and sometimes while sitting up! But enough complaining. I have always had the mentality that if you are going to complain about something, then you also need to DO something about it. Complaining is good to become aware of an issue, however, apart from that, it can be entirely counterproductive. It can also lead to negative thoughts and the “not good enough” thinking. In an effort to counteract the threat of this downward spiral, I’m taking a minute to recognize what I am thankful for. I may not have the brain power to come up with new content, but I can definitely appreciate what is already there for me, getting me through the day.
1. Florence and the Machine’s CD Lungs: Current favorite CD that has found a permanent spot in my car CD player. So much so, that my 7-year-old daughter now also now knows all the words to all the songs. It makes me smile to hear her singing in the back seat.
2. iPhone 4: Sure it’s not the new 4S with the splendid Suri that everyone is raving about, my iPhone 4 is just what I need. Being about to check my emails, voicemails, bank account, my blog, latest runway show, and play the occasional game of Words With Friends, without leaving my couch has been a godsend.
3. Guess jeans: When I first became pregnant, my mother happen to obtain her goal of losing some weight. YAY mom. Anyways, knowing I would be expanding due to baby, she gave me some of her nicer pieces that were now too big for her. One of these inheritance were a pair of Guess Jeans. Although I didn’t wear them much when I was prego, since the baby has been born, they are the only jeans that seem to fit! While this could be a very depressing thought, I feel extremely lucky to have my only pair of fitting jeans to be so fabulous. As I am working to hopefully create a body where the jeans will be too big once again, in the meantime, I’m enjoying them.
4. Vogue and Vanity Fair: OK, so this is 2 things, but they go hand in hand. My two absolutely favorite magazines have and continue to be my window into the outside world of classic fashion. Vogue is great for high fashion and fun articles. Vanity Fair satisfies my intellectually savvy need. The articles are more on the political side, however, never without flare and style.
5. Fresh cut flowers: One thing I have been doing one a regular basis, is having fresh-cut flowers in the house. I don’t spend a ton of money. Trader Joes has great bouquets for $3.99 – doesn’t get any better. Whenever I catch myself staring at the blank walls and wishing I had the energy to start the decorating process in our new house, I bring my eyes over to the beautiful flowers on my kitchen table. I make sure to get a bright colorful selection and it always lifts my spirits.
So there you have it. I guess you could say it’s my current survival guide to get through the sleepless nights and zombified existence I currently find myself in. Although it is difficult, my new little guy is worth all of it…and more.